Monday, April 26, 2010

happy accident

song of the day: happy accident by bright eyes
come on tell  me where it is cause im looking for that happiness

Blue in the face
Eyes blood shot
Shock shifting
Sound loving is so easy
Figure it out

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

figuring things out

its temporary the place im in i permanently wont do this again

song of the day
fake empire by the national

lets not try to figure out everything at once

Sunday, April 18, 2010

same shi different year

song of the day
easy, lucky, free by bright eyes
this song is about dying and how there is nothing easier luckier or as free as dying but i love it all the same and the video is great

Don't be a criminal in this police state
You better shop and eat and procreate
You got vacation days then you might escape
To a condo on the coast

trying to figure out why i care about the jazz so much and would like to thank them for giving me a false sense of hope through 3 quarters tonight, one of these years when they win it all it will be sweet but until then ill just patiently wait and be quietly disappointed in them.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

land of talk

song of the day
some are lakes by land of talk
saw this band open for m ward last summer but havent got into them until this week

Tuesday, April 13, 2010


song of the day
like yesterday by ryan adams and the cardinals
i take a sleeping pill and feel a little less pain

do you ever get that feeling where you want to punch somebody something maybe yourself maybe all of these along with some other things? maybe i am too lazy and dont care enough to do any of these things at the moment. or maybe i care too much which could be a problem as well. lots of problems not too many answers just a lot of bull shit and other things. sometimes i feel bi polar probably am but who knows what that really means anyways so abstract. sometimes i feel emo probably am but maybe not im not like that nor do i aspire to be like that. i am tired of where i am i am tired of what has happened to me but i am awake still and still here so who knows. anyways lots to talk about cant find the words to express it. maybe thats the problem or just one or two or seven of the problems or five or six depending on what hand you use to count and how many times you carry over the remainder. math when am i ever going to use that and for what, yeah i can count but sesame street taught me that yeah they say that math teaches you how to think but i dont really think i like that but sometimes i dont know what to think why to think it and how long to think it for or how many steps to take in one day. sometimes peoples pedometers break maybe mine is broken and im not really going anywhere or none of this counts for anything or maybe it counts but no one knows how many it is cause the damn pedometer is broken hate when that happens. there is a lot of things that most people dont understand but they act like they understand them because they are insecure or need to act and look smart in order to impress people. but who are people anyways and why do they need to be impressed and why do they even matter thats another problem. along with problems are questions problems create questions and questions lead to more problems. but maybe there arent any problems and they are all made up like a story or a movie or something. someone told me once that if at first you dont succeed then go home you loser. why cause you lost and probably dont want to deal with that losing feeling ever again cause it is not a good feeling but you still feel it and dont really know how to deal with it and of course thats another problem. look my life is fine or so i tell myself and i have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to look forward to. i grew up with pretty much everything i wanted and was successful for the most part did not get told no much and did not lose often. i think everyone probably has to lose but why do some people have to lose a lot not saying that i lose a lot just lately the past years things have been a train wreck. speaking of train wrecks i wonder if those people are liable for crashing the train in the first place. i am supposed to know these things right cause im a law student. i dont feel like my first year of law school has prepared me to practice law i feel like it has taught me that there is a lot out there that i have no idea about and when i think i have an idea about something another thing comes along and screws everything you thought you knew up. but then again not sure if i ever thought i knew anything or if anyone should think that they know anything. this doesnt make sense but most things dont make sense if you break it down. the world is confusion and chaos and we are supposed to make sense of it i guess. anyways i am sick of a lot of things but i feel healthy and have almost made it through the first year of law school and for what im not sure but one day will find out. i want to be a lawyer but what kind and where and what if i dont make it through school or start working and dont like then i guess ill find something else to do but then ill feel that losing feeling yeah that one that no one likes and only a few people know how to deal with i think maybe they are lying when they say they know how to deal with it but who knows. i use the word but a lot maybe cause i feel like everything needs to be disclaimed or something because nothing is really that straight forward but maybe it is that straight forward and i use the word but too much which is true maybe there is a point.

that was a rant not sure if i feel better but dont feel worse so thats a positive.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

things i hate

song of the day
arkansas by damien jurado

new damien jurado album in may! may is going to be a great music month

a few things i hate right now
1. billy wagner
2. law school
3. annoying people
4. a few things that will go unmentioned

thats about it for now

Friday, April 9, 2010

wish you were here

song of the day
wish you were here by ryan adams

And everybody knows the way I walk
And knows the way I talk
And knows the way I feel about you
It's all a bunch of shit
And there's nothing to do around here

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

when life gives you lemons

song of the day
trying to find a balance by atmosphere

when life gives you lemons, YOU PAINT THAT SHIT GOLD

Sunday, April 4, 2010


song of the day
caskets by damien jurado
damien jurado is one of my favorites and this wins for one of the creepiest music videos out there

i'm useful as bones in a tomb

Thursday, April 1, 2010

2000 places

song of the day
section 14: two thousand places by the polyphonic spree
my roommate and i were discussing how awesome this band is the other day. it is also applicable to life right now feel like i have to be 2000 places at once but this song suggests to me that everything will work out in time and it is important to figure out who you are in order to be successful.