Steven's Blawg

High For This

2012-01-24T19:17:00.000-06:00

Top Albums of 2011

2011-12-19T10:54:00.000-06:00

1. Frank Ocean- Nostalgia Ultra

2. Ryan Adams- Ashes & Fire

3. Bright Eyes- The People's Key

4.Jay-Z and Kanye West- Watch the Throne

5. Kurt Vile - Smoke Ring For My Halo

6. The Roots- UNDUN

7. We Are Augustines - Rise Ye Sunken Ships

8. The Weeknd - House of Balloons or Thursday (tie)

9. T.W. Walsh- Songs of Pain and Leisure

10. M83- Hurry Up We are Dreaming

Honorable Mentions:
Drake - Take Care
Childish Gambino - Camp
Bon Iver -Bon Iver
St. Vincent - Strange Mercy
Wilco- The Whole Love
Lykke Li- Wounded Rhymes
Nerves Junior - As Bright as Your Night Light
The Joy Formidable- The Big Roar
Wye Oak- Civilian
Cults- Cults

Finals

2011-12-04T00:41:00.000-06:00

this isnt about finals at all it is about ryan adams (what else do i post about)

Morning Becomes Eclectic Session on KCRW from last Friday

this got me through a ridiculous day

http://www.kcrw.com/music/programs/mb/mb111202ryan_adams

"and if i could find my way back home where would i go?" story of my life right now

I also like this new Cass Mccombs album (favorite song above)

Twitter Fiction

2011-10-23T23:18:00.000-05:00

http://nanoism.net/

These are the best!!! Fiction in 140 words or less and Austin Hackett got published on it check it out.

Music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_4aB2pFkr0 Put It In Your Manners by Chiddy Bang ft. Childish Gambino or mashed up or sumthin

Leave of Absence

2011-10-10T23:08:00.000-05:00

So I have not blogged for a while it is because I have been updating my imaginary blog with funny and interesting stuff it has lots of followers and traffic. I lost the link to it, but I will share it when I find it.

In the meantime is this girl serious ?! http://prettymuchamazing.com/videos/lana-del-rey-blue-jeans-live
lust/repulsion

New Ryan Adams http://stereogum.com/836942/ryan-adams-lucky-now-video/video/

2011-09-11T22:15:00.000-05:00

Bon Iver

Bright Eyes

Music: All Alone by Toro Y Moi

No matter the way I look I cant see anything

No matter the way I run I get nowhere

If You Have Enough Attention

2011-08-31T23:09:00.000-05:00

Song: Midnight City by M83 (this album is going to be amazing)

Surfing the internet instead of studying (of course) and I came across this article about Oregon football and it got me thinking way too much for a sports article. This is a simple idea, but it is very true: If you have enough attention you can get whatever you want. Here is a quote from the article with a link to the whole thing:

"Economics is the study of the allocation of resources that are scarce. These days, more and more, information isn't scarce. Stuff isn't scarce. What's scarce is attention. The companies that win in an attention economy are those that win the eyeballs of people who have too much to look at. Too many ads. Too many screens in too many places. Too many games on too many channels on too many days of the week.

"This new economy," Goldhaber said in Cambridge in January 1997, "is based on endless originality.

"If you have enough attention," he added, "you can get anything you want."

John C. Beck cowrote a book called The Attention Economy: Understanding the New Currency of Business. "Just go back to what gets attention in the animal world," he said. One thing is fear. Another thing is bright colors."

Full article: http://www.grantland.com/story/_/id/6909937/how-does-oregon-football-keep-winning

Bill Simmons

2011-08-27T15:17:00.000-05:00

Song Headlines by Drake

I love Bill Simmons and this great advice for college

"That reminds me, it's my duty to pass along these five rules for anyone heading to college: stay active beyond your classes (newspaper, radio station, etc.); don't date anyone for longer than two semesters; always drink liquor before beer and not vice-versa; don't forget to call your parents every few days; and approach your classes the same way Shaq approached his NBA career. In other words, don't kill yourself trying to become the best center of all time; just do enough to eventually get mentioned in the top 10, and enjoy every moment along the way. Shaq could have ended up with a 3.95 in the NBA; he settled for a 3.4. Ultimately, did it really matter? He won ~~three~~ four rings, made something like $300 million, clinched a spot on the "best 15 players ever" list, kicked ass for three straight postseasons and will be remembered by everybody who watched him. That's what you want to get out of college."

Cell PHONEZZZ and music

2011-08-20T14:14:00.001-05:00

So remember that goalIi had to be less dependent on my cell phone? Well I didn't do so hot in Vegas (being alone makes a cell phone necessary) now I am in Nebraska, but I do not get service in my basement apartment. So problem solved on being dependent. However, I am now more dependent on the internet.

Haven't blogged for a while here are a few things I've been listening to.

Come to the City by the War on Drugs- http://vimeo.com/27019826

Gangsta by Tune Yards- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ujebm05G9JA

Cinemetropolis by Blue Scholars- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oUidzvutFTI

Civilian by Wye Oak- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oomp8JBywts&feature=related

Society is My Friend by Kurt Vile- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kpg6bSETZaw

invisibility

2011-07-17T23:43:00.000-05:00

What would you do if you were invisible for an hour?

this is the kind of shit i need to think about in case it actually happens. you dont want to be wasting any time while you are invisible trying to decide what you are going to do. i am going to sleep on this. if anyone has any ideas of what they would do please let me know because really you dont want to waste any time once you become invisible.

music: comin' through by the war on drugs

raisin bran

2011-07-07T14:00:00.001-05:00

i mixed kellogg's raisin bran with post raisin bran
in a big bowl, like the kind little kids put on their heads
i don't use milk it makes me want to barf
like a psychosomatic form of lactose intolerance

i am pretty sure this mixture will cause problems
like the world will end in an instant
two competing large corporate cereal brands
with the same fu*king cereal in the same colored box

but that is what drives capitalism, competition
providing choices of the same product
when all i want is a bowl of dry raisin bran to eat
i really showed kelloggs and post

almost positive these corporations are going to fail
solely based on me combining their cereal in one bowl
i expect a letter soon from legal counsel of kelloggs
telling me to stop combining my cereal or else

for now i will continue to eat my breakfast slowly
and continue to stare at two purple boxes
one day this mixing shit will make a difference
i never realized how much sugar raisin bran had

MUSIC: Oh My God by Cults

bloody poetry

2011-06-26T01:01:00.000-05:00

song: bloody poetry by grieves

"But what else can we do when we are so weak? We invest hours each day, months each year, years each lifetime in something over which we have no control; is it any wonder then, that we are reduced to creating ingenious but bizarre liturgies designed to give us the illusion that we are powerful after all, just as every other primitive community has done when faced with a deep and apparently impenetrable mystery?"

That is from the book I am reading Fever Pitch by Nick Hornby really good the writing is incredible.

r & b

2011-06-18T00:20:00.000-05:00

hand of god by jason boesel

sometime

sometime soon it will be that sometimes only some of the time people that you count on will be there all of the time those times are the best sometimes- but then you remember that all of the time you are just hoping for this time

i am obsessed with this site so many good writers www.grantland.com

so i apparently like r & b music now: the weeknd http://prettymuchamazing.com/mp3/the-weeknd-the-birds-part-i and frank ocean http://prettymuchamazing.com/videos/frank-ocean-novacane

Summerzzzz Goalzzzz

2011-06-11T21:21:00.000-05:00

Musics: Progress by Booker T. Jones Ft. Yim Yames

I laughed till i stopped when I read this http://www.27bslash6.com/p2p2.html Pie Charts

This summer I have a few goals 1. dont become a gambling addict 2. dont spend a lot of money on clothes 3. not hate going to work erry day 4. dont die of boredom and or loneliness 5. work out at least once 6. solve mysteries 7. avoid country music 8. figure out how to write 9. become less dependent on my phone 10. not have so many goals

SKERS and cake

2011-06-06T14:48:00.000-05:00

Nebraska football in 3 months never thought I would be more pumped for Nebraska football than BYU but go skers!!

http://bleacherreport.com/articles/719856-nebraska-cornhuskers-10-bold-predictions-for-the-2011-college-football-season#/articles/719856-nebraska-cornhuskers-10-bold-predictions-for-the-2011-college-football-season

Song: You Wanna Freak Out by My Morning Jacket

CAKE by Roger McGough:

i wanted one life
you wanted another
we couldn't have our cake
so we ate eachother.

I AM

2011-05-25T03:32:00.000-05:00

song
Don't Play No Game I Can't Win by the Beastie Boys

I am... just me but before we met
I want... to win big
I have... nightmares
I wish... everyone would wake up
I hate... haters
I fear... robots taking over the world
I hear... them say
I search... for the best time wasters
I wonder... what it would be like to not get clammy hands and if nikorette gum tastes good
I regret... leaving
I love... indie girls
I ache... most mornings
I always... dread monday
I usually... strike back
I am not... a robot
I dance... when fiddy is playing in da club
I sing... when im trying out for american idol (or whatever that show is)
I never... play no sh*t
I sometimes... feel lost
I cry... when Little Foot's mom dies
I am not always... anti-social
I lose... track of who the Kardashian's are dating
I am confused... who are the Kardashians?
I need... to understand
I should... find a reason
WHO ARE YOU?

Baseball and editing

2011-05-11T16:34:00.000-05:00

Song: Devil Town by Bright Eyes

With nothing to do for the next few weeks I am going to watch as many baseball games as possible and listen to every baseball podcast out there.

I REFUSE by Ryan Adams

I refuse to edit*
I am but a single life
I refuse to edit
look away
if you choose
bu these bulbs
will burn in cycles
if forever
was a single night

2011-04-10T01:31:00.000-05:00

sink ships by ryan adams and the cardinals

Memories

bored and overwhelmed

wandering the sidewalks

towards that place that you said not to go

once you get to that place then what?

everything is convoluted

and you just want to to get back

but you spend all your time throwing up

throwing up memories

figurative bulimia except the memories stay

and thats the problem with memories

they are just that

Wish You Were Here or I Was There or Something

2011-04-02T23:21:00.000-05:00

song Jejune Stars by Bright Eyes (listened to this album like 2399492 times not sick of it)

goodbye lincoln, ne
(it was not fun while it lasted still isn't)

suddenly but not so suddenly
playing rock paper scissors
(with myself of course)
paper covers rock i leave
scissors cut paper still leaving
rock smashes paper yup going to leave
so why do i play
well to pass time till i can leave

spinning

2011-03-16T23:09:00.000-05:00

song
faded high by GAYNGS

the weekends are never fun unless you spin around in circles on a baseball bat
then you stumble around trying to run and you arent worried about having fun
the only worry you have is trying to get the world to stop spinning so fast
but thats the trick because the world is always spinning you just cant feel it
centrifugal force or some other bull shit physics thing (just kidding physics arent bs)
wild combination of trying to sort through theoretical spinning and physical spinning
one of these days things will stop spinning and i hope that day i am wearing a shirt

Cellophane

2011-03-06T20:41:00.000-06:00

Song
Wanting Her Again by Ben Kweller

Cellophane

This is beginning to feel like... You know what I'm saying
You don't really know... But you don't say anything
Mainly cause you don't care... What is the point of analogizing
Wrap me up in analogies... Like with a blanket or cellophane
Cellophane... Thats like stretchy plastic shit that makes you mad
How is that for analogizing... Just making points of reference
This is beginning to feel like... It is wrapped around my face

Ironing

2011-02-25T23:47:00.000-06:00

Song:
Too Much by Sufjan Stevens

Ironing by Ryan Adams

the heat
on the bottom
binds new things
to old
like us

~~strike through: no idea what this means or why you would have it as an option but here it is~~

Ok done striking through for now, but maybe I will use it later when I want something deleted, but I want people to know what I deleted (that would make it not deleted). Been trying to write lately has not been going well. It feels forced, contrived, and or just like shitty shitty writing. I think part of this has to do with me being hard on myself and trying to find my personal style avoiding cliche. Our lives are flooded with cliche it is hard to avoid. Sometimes when I write I think why does this matter I sound like every other immature depressed teenager that ever wrote anything down. The problem is I am 24 and supposed to be responsible and worried about getting a job and being a grown up. Maybe I am just an immature teenager got left a little behind. Sorry I do not have any kids or anything (wait what do kids have anything to do with it nothing maybe i should use the strike through???) and maybe I do not know what I believe or what I want to do... but I'm just here for now.

SWATE

2011-02-17T22:13:00.000-06:00

song
SWATE by Das Racist

this internet thing is pretty swate currently watching a live ben kweller concert SWATE
school and nebraska are the opposite of swate

Brass by Ryan Adams (a poem that i think is swate)

. . . when
when the brass blows
down that crooked lane
is that when
is that when you will
you know
say my name
once more
and
maybe even cry
no
no i doubt that
very
very
much
. . . when

robot boxes

2011-02-08T23:00:00.000-06:00

song
Limit to Your Love by James Blake

Straightened my hair it isn't long or anything

poem i wroted

robot boxes

stuck in a small box
built by robots
no clue how i got here
maybe its not a box
maybe it is just a small space
or a metaphor for a box
but if just a metaphor
where do the robots come in?

nighttime

2011-02-06T01:03:00.001-06:00

Songs

Zombies by the Sea by Hoquiam- Damien Jurado and his brother

THE PEOPLE"S KEY ALBUM by Bright Eyes- "I'm still angry with no reason to be"

Talamak by Toro Y Moi - chill wave glo fi chill as shit whatever you want to classify it as

Rolling in the Deep by Adele- not sure why I like this so much lots of good remixes out there of it

up late and homesick the usual i guess

My friend Austin is good at constructing poems and stuff here is one i like entitled "nighttime":

it’s late and i’m depressed. slouching in my chair, i’m skimming old issues of scientific american and trying to be interested in something when there’s a knock at the door. it’s a tall and pale but beautiful woman surrounded by an all-girls choir. i ask her what’s going on and she says that music is the balm for a broken heart then lifts her arms and begins to sing a sweet long loud but gentle note and as she does golden glitter spills down from her hair and begins to fill my room. all the girls join in harmony and one by one their chests explode and spray different shades of gold until it covers my legs my neck my head and i’m floating.

i can talk... sometimes

2011-01-29T18:37:00.000-06:00

song of the day
i can talk by two door cinema club

contrivance (you know a poem)

trying to speak but the words melted in your mouth not in your hands
not that you would want them to melt in your hands either
you are contradicting yourself but in your head it is not a contradiction
or maybe you dont even really hear what you are saying
then you realize that all of it is just contrived and forced
and this is the kind of conversation that drives you crazy but you keep on
one day you will say something that is meaningful emotional worth while
until then just keep bull shitting through every day encounters

Inference Theory

2011-01-24T21:13:00.000-06:00

Song of the Day: Fire to the Ground by the Forms feat Matthew Berrninger (you know the guy from the national)

aversions towards just about everything these days

what would we do without wikipedia?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Interference_theory

kind of want to forget everything or figure out a way to remember everything

i wish someone would make me those peanut butter oatmeal no bake cookies and then convince me they were vitamins or had lots of fiber (those cookies are the shit) however we dont live in a perfect world where people make you things when you want them or can assume that you want them someone get on that (and when i say that i mean figuring out how people can assume what people need and want)

Sinking Into The Ocean

2011-01-16T21:11:00.000-06:00

Song of the Day

Night Birds by Ryan Adams

Were supposed to rise above
But we sink
Into the ocean

I've been having a hard time letting letting go of the past. I feel like I am being constantly dragged down from people and experiences in the past. I think we are supposed to find a balance between constantly dwelling on the past and complete detachment from the past. Like you are supposed to look to the past to learn things and move forward with a purpose. I haven't been able to figure that out.

"I don't know what it is with females, but I'm not too good at that shit"

Fake People

2011-01-11T00:56:00.000-06:00

Song of the Day

A More Perfect Union by Titus Andronicus

Fake people are like real people minus the fact they arent real

top 10 albums 2010 IMO

2010-12-15T16:16:00.000-06:00

my favorite albums from 2010 crazy music year links are to my favorite songs on the album

1. Ryan Adams & The Cardinals- III/IV
stream the whole thing here: http://paxamrecords.com/news/2010/stream-iiiiv-in-its-entirety/

2. Tokyo Police Club- Champ

3. Kanye West- My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy

4. Phantogram- Eyelid Movies

5. Wild Nothing- Gemini

6. Jonsi- Go

7. Jenny and Johnny- I'm Having Fun Now

8. Beach House- Teen Dream

9. Damien Jurado- Saint Bartlett

10. Arcade Fire- The Suburbs

Honorable Mentions:

Frightened Rabbit- The Winter of Mixed Drinks
Yeasayer- Odd Blood
Broken Bells- Broken Bells
Land of Talk- Cloak and Cipher
The National- High Violet
Sufjan Stevens- The Age of Adz
Sun Kil Moon- Admiral Fell Promises
Brandon Flowers- Flamingo
Stars- The Five Ghosts
Dr. Dog- Shame Shame
Freelance Whales- Weathervanes

hyphens and other swear words

2010-11-29T22:54:00.000-06:00

VCR by the XX
Tornado by Jonsi

indie kid make-out music (when are words hyph-enated and when are-not they?)

one of those bedroom laptop introverted type things
finals
life
time
loneliness
effffff word

i think kanye's new album is unreal amazing so what?

between the bars

2010-11-22T23:29:00.000-06:00

song of the day
between the bars by metric (elliott smith cover)

holy hells
one of my favorite bands covering an amazing song

Fantasy Sports

2010-11-14T21:42:00.000-06:00

Songs of the Days

Winding Wheel by Ryan Adams- i feel just like a map without any place to go of interest

Bambi by Tokyo Police Club- i want to tell you there's a really good reason that i came home wasted in the middle of the night

I play fantasy everything, and bet on some games. It drives me nuts but keeps me entertained I guess. Thinking about quitting, but then what would I do with my time?... More school work? The frustration/ reward ratio is high right now I'd say like 4/1 especially with money on the line I have had terrible luck this year. (No one wants to hear fantasy stories so I will leave it at that) In the meantime I will wait and see if Desaun Jackson or Hedo Turkoglu can salvage my weeks for me.

Fix It

2010-11-07T19:00:00.002-06:00

Song of the Day
Fix It by Ryan Adams and the Cardinals

I want to go home

Halloween

2010-10-31T19:12:00.001-05:00

Songs of the Day
They Are Night Zombies!! They Are Neighbors!! They Have Come Back From The Dead!! Ahhhh!
by Sufjan Stevens
Halloweenhead
by Ryan Adams

The Witching Hour
by Wild Nothing

I am a Halloween hater but these good halloweenish songs
another week of the grind. love law school

someday or erry day

2010-10-27T01:22:00.000-05:00

song of the day
someday by dr. dog

i want every day to be a mental health day so what?

i like this

http://prettymuchamazing.com/mp3/chiddy-bang-x-the-naked-famous-young-blood-remix

and this (and her)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZvSgLHWR16o

P.TM

2010-10-24T22:08:00.000-05:00

song of the day
do you by portugal. the man

probably watch this music video. i went to this show on thursday

TWITTER?

2010-10-20T22:09:00.000-05:00

Song of the Day
Blue Skies by Noah and the Whale

cheesy? maybe a little, but helps me get through hard days

optimism

What is Twitter? Why is Twitter? I don't get it... why?

The Dentist

2010-10-13T21:49:00.000-05:00

Song of the Day
Basic Space by The XX

Why do people always say "oh yeah my dentist loves me I never have any cavities?" When in reality the dentist probably loves the people with terrible teeth, cause they make way more money off them. This is just what I think I'll have to ask my dad I guess, maybe he has some insight.

PLAYOFFS!!!

2010-10-03T20:44:00.000-05:00

song of the day
truth by chiddy bang

get it together

2010-09-28T23:40:00.000-05:00

2 days till this
song of the day
world news by local natives

i feel like i need to get my shit together but maybe it isnt apart but if it is apart i dont know how to begin putting it back together maybe ill make an outline or diagram or flow chart or something that always seems to be smart but i dont know what to put on any of these things

everything is good for us normals

MUSIC

2010-09-21T23:25:00.000-05:00

I listened to music for 7 hours tonight

the bar is a beautiful place by ryan adams

and tomorrow you will probably give up on me

slavedriver by jenny and johnny

who doesnt like a song about s&m and bondage right? (really good song despite what it is about)

live in dreams by wild nothing

favorite new band this album is engaging to say the least

tornado by jonsi

eerie and beautiful

some days they last longer than others

2010-09-14T21:19:00.003-05:00

song of the day
with arms outstretched by rilo kiley

trying to tolerate the intolerable

EMOTIONALISM

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emotionalism

Throw The Bones

2010-09-10T20:17:00.000-05:00

Song of the Day:
Devil in a New Dress by Kanye West

the way you look should be a sin you my sinsation

Lost

2010-09-06T21:26:00.000-05:00

Song of the day:

Quarry Hymns by Land of Talk

I get lost even in places I know

"I give you some thing that no one's gonna to give you
my sleepin' skin and my heart deep down in you
I'll never tell you, but you're my little scar
Goodbyes are hard and they're hard and they're hard"

Running With Scissors

2010-09-01T14:11:00.000-05:00

Song of the Day
Scissor Runner by Jenny and Johnny (the album Im Having Fun Now is sooooooooo damn good)

It is September best month of the year

I'll forgive you if I outlive you.

I think running with scissors could be advisable in some cases, but when you are little you are told

DONT RUN WITH SCISSORS

Apathy

2010-08-29T21:54:00.000-05:00

Song of the day:
Your English is Good by Tokyo Police Club

Apathy is the opposite of love and I am apathetic

Back in Lincoln

2010-08-23T10:57:00.000-05:00

Song of the Day
two headed boy by neutral milk hotel
Back at school... sucks

the sprawl II

2010-08-04T19:07:00.000-05:00

Song of the day
The Sprawl II by Arcade Fire

I have good timing

Last Day OF WORK

2010-07-29T10:44:00.000-05:00

Song of the Day
This Charming Man by The Smiths

"You see life is like that. We change, that's all. You see, the guy I am now is not the guy I was then. If the guy I was then met the guy I am now he'd beat the shit out of me. Those are the facts."

chaos

2010-07-27T11:14:00.001-05:00

song of the day

you are my sun by sun kil moon

chaos in man, although hopeful, can be a little tiresome

at the pool the other day 6 or 7 year old ish girl singing lollipop by lil wayne what is this world coming to? srsly?!

ALL SUMMER

2010-07-15T14:46:00.000-05:00

song of the day:

All Summer by Kid Cudi Best Coast and Rostam

been loving best coast lately

everybody chillin we aint worried about shi#*!

New favorite things lunch break and internet not working obviously the internet is fine at the moment but lunch time is good too

You Can Combine Anything You Want... Chi Town

2010-07-12T18:00:00.000-05:00

Song of the Day

Jesus Etc. by Wilco

Norah Jones cover amazing

Went to chicago for the weekend

ill be back again when the tide is in someday

2010-07-09T11:15:00.001-05:00

song of the day

in a cave by tokyo police club

so i had maybe one of the better ideas of my short career last night. E.L.Fudge cookies are amazing i love the chocolate in the middle but i love the cookie part even better so i usually just pull them apart and save all the chocolate for the last cookie i eat (which is usually too many). anyways they should sell bags of just the cookies cause they are amazing! someone get on that

another good idea lebron should have had all 30 teams jerseys on last night and taken them off one by one and thanks to scott stevens he should have been sitting in his big throne from the sports center commercials

chi town what up?

comatose joy

2010-07-07T17:49:00.000-05:00

song of the day:

cape canaveral by conor oberst

writing poetry like i am going to win the pulitzer prize what???

trying to work hit a wall though

DO NOT turn the lights on

2010-06-30T14:30:00.000-05:00

song of the day

dont turn the lights on by chromeo

SMOOTH

Dear GOD

2010-06-24T17:26:00.000-05:00

song of the day

dear god 2.0 by the roots ft. monsters of folk

A second is a minute, every hour's infinite

our hell is a good life

2010-06-17T16:39:00.001-05:00

song of the day
our hell by emily haines

living in an anti-social paradise or something

We’re moderate, we modernize
till our hell is a good life
All we know what to forget… how to do right
Coloring in the black hole
Can’t we stop? when we stop
My hands will shake, my eyes will burn
My throat will ache, watching you turn

im not suicidal i just cant get out of bed

2010-06-15T15:43:00.000-05:00

song of the day
waves by metric

i love emily haines

Episodes to fantasize
TV movie of our lives
The future is all mine
I'll find it on my way back

When I'm gone
I'll know what I've done
I'll go where I don't belong

Sylvia Plath

2010-06-14T11:14:00.000-05:00

song of the day:
sylvia plath by ryan adams

to give me a reason, for well, i dunno

rock n roll

2010-06-01T19:07:00.000-05:00

song of the day
so alive by ryan adams

first day of work no internet at the condo so i anticipate most of these being short but rock n roll by ryan adams is so underrated and sooooo good listen to that shit he made it in like 2 days cause he was pissed at his record label.

greener grass or something similar

2010-05-19T20:17:00.000-05:00

song of the day
first song by matt pond pa

the grass is always greener on the other side or so they say but where exactly is the other side and who says you want to be where there is greener grass. i am trying to be ok with the worn out crab grass right now. i just havent been able to feel complacent for a while. complacency can be a good and a bad thing. i think it is important to never be satisfied with certain things but you need to be complacent with things you do not have control over which is where i struggle.

come home darling, come home quickly.

thanks in part to mother nature it will never rain again it should do wonders for the gnp.

im trying

2010-05-15T14:35:00.000-05:00

song of the day
polar opposites by modest mouse
its the same on the weekends as the rest of the day

impatiently patiently waiting for grades ahhhhhhhhhh whatevs

dependently independent

2010-05-11T00:13:00.000-05:00

song of the day
i taught myself to grow old by ryan adams
love this song think its talking about being independent and struggling to learn things on your own

seeing old friends being in old places and watching the familiar jazz stink up the joint things change but some things stay the same its how it goes

done for

2010-05-06T17:06:00.000-05:00

song of the day
the great salt lake by band of horses
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TshWB77-7M4
3 days i miss mountains and things
i am done feel a little empty confused but overall things are good

show stoppers

2010-05-03T22:15:00.000-05:00

song of the day
all the show stoppers by the new pornographers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HXaxxJ3azwg

you know that feeling bottom of the 9th down 1 man on 2nd and 3rd 2 outs last strike and you can either get a hit and win the game or get out any number of ways well thats the feeling i have at the moment come wednesday at 4 it will be over either way hopefully i can at least get a hit

punk as bleep

2010-05-01T23:12:00.000-05:00

song of the day
punk as fuck by the american analog set
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cx2eCO3DgKk

Knowing that punk is an attitude...
not how you dress or do your hair,
not what kind of music you listen to,
not who you hang out with,
not how much you drink,
not what kind of drugs you do,
not if you sleep on the street or eat out of dumpsters,
not how many tattoos or piercings you have,
ITS A FUCKING ATTITUDE

happy accident

2010-04-26T23:20:00.000-05:00

song of the day: happy accident by bright eyes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpIqmxaWsx0
come on tell me where it is cause im looking for that happiness

Blue in the face
Eyes blood shot
Shock shifting
Sound loving is so easy
Figure it out

figuring things out

2010-04-20T20:57:00.000-05:00

its temporary the place im in i permanently wont do this again

song of the day
fake empire by the national
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KehwyWmXr3U&feature=related

lets not try to figure out everything at once

same shi different year

2010-04-18T00:44:00.000-05:00

song of the day
easy, lucky, free by bright eyes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7xtiRrthlo
this song is about dying and how there is nothing easier luckier or as free as dying but i love it all the same and the video is great

Don't be a criminal in this police state
You better shop and eat and procreate
You got vacation days then you might escape
To a condo on the coast

trying to figure out why i care about the jazz so much and would like to thank them for giving me a false sense of hope through 3 quarters tonight, one of these years when they win it all it will be sweet but until then ill just patiently wait and be quietly disappointed in them.

land of talk

2010-04-15T16:14:00.001-05:00

song of the day

some are lakes by land of talk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1kIQT7uUiME

saw this band open for m ward last summer but havent got into them until this week

it's okay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m53--yTPQNk&feature=channel

problems

2010-04-13T22:06:00.000-05:00

song of the day
like yesterday by ryan adams and the cardinals
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ooEv-b8MQYM
i take a sleeping pill and feel a little less pain

do you ever get that feeling where you want to punch somebody something maybe yourself maybe all of these along with some other things? maybe i am too lazy and dont care enough to do any of these things at the moment. or maybe i care too much which could be a problem as well. lots of problems not too many answers just a lot of bull shit and other things. sometimes i feel bi polar probably am but who knows what that really means anyways so abstract. sometimes i feel emo probably am but maybe not im not like that nor do i aspire to be like that. i am tired of where i am i am tired of what has happened to me but i am awake still and still here so who knows. anyways lots to talk about cant find the words to express it. maybe thats the problem or just one or two or seven of the problems or five or six depending on what hand you use to count and how many times you carry over the remainder. math when am i ever going to use that and for what, yeah i can count but sesame street taught me that yeah they say that math teaches you how to think but i dont really think i like that but sometimes i dont know what to think why to think it and how long to think it for or how many steps to take in one day. sometimes peoples pedometers break maybe mine is broken and im not really going anywhere or none of this counts for anything or maybe it counts but no one knows how many it is cause the damn pedometer is broken hate when that happens. there is a lot of things that most people dont understand but they act like they understand them because they are insecure or need to act and look smart in order to impress people. but who are people anyways and why do they need to be impressed and why do they even matter thats another problem. along with problems are questions problems create questions and questions lead to more problems. but maybe there arent any problems and they are all made up like a story or a movie or something. someone told me once that if at first you dont succeed then go home you loser. why cause you lost and probably dont want to deal with that losing feeling ever again cause it is not a good feeling but you still feel it and dont really know how to deal with it and of course thats another problem. look my life is fine or so i tell myself and i have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to look forward to. i grew up with pretty much everything i wanted and was successful for the most part did not get told no much and did not lose often. i think everyone probably has to lose but why do some people have to lose a lot not saying that i lose a lot just lately the past years things have been a train wreck. speaking of train wrecks i wonder if those people are liable for crashing the train in the first place. i am supposed to know these things right cause im a law student. i dont feel like my first year of law school has prepared me to practice law i feel like it has taught me that there is a lot out there that i have no idea about and when i think i have an idea about something another thing comes along and screws everything you thought you knew up. but then again not sure if i ever thought i knew anything or if anyone should think that they know anything. this doesnt make sense but most things dont make sense if you break it down. the world is confusion and chaos and we are supposed to make sense of it i guess. anyways i am sick of a lot of things but i feel healthy and have almost made it through the first year of law school and for what im not sure but one day will find out. i want to be a lawyer but what kind and where and what if i dont make it through school or start working and dont like then i guess ill find something else to do but then ill feel that losing feeling yeah that one that no one likes and only a few people know how to deal with i think maybe they are lying when they say they know how to deal with it but who knows. i use the word but a lot maybe cause i feel like everything needs to be disclaimed or something because nothing is really that straight forward but maybe it is that straight forward and i use the word but too much which is true maybe there is a point.

that was a rant not sure if i feel better but dont feel worse so thats a positive.

things i hate

2010-04-10T22:31:00.000-05:00

song of the day
arkansas by damien jurado
http://stereogum.com/286301/damien-jurado-arkansas-stereogum-premier/mp3s/

new damien jurado album in may! may is going to be a great music month

a few things i hate right now
1. billy wagner
2. law school
3. annoying people
4. a few things that will go unmentioned

thats about it for now

wish you were here

2010-04-09T00:12:00.000-05:00

song of the day
wish you were here by ryan adams
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljzW1Or7-BI

And everybody knows the way I walk
And knows the way I talk
And knows the way I feel about you
It's all a bunch of shit
And there's nothing to do around here

when life gives you lemons

2010-04-07T18:44:00.000-05:00

song of the day
trying to find a balance by atmosphere
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gbEwHJX95QE

when life gives you lemons, YOU PAINT THAT SHIT GOLD

caskets

2010-04-04T21:25:00.001-05:00

song of the day
caskets by damien jurado
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blf79kcWjUo
damien jurado is one of my favorites and this wins for one of the creepiest music videos out there

i'm useful as bones in a tomb

http://stereogum.com/10773/damien_jurado_murderer_low_cov/the-gum-drop/

2000 places

2010-04-01T22:40:00.000-05:00

song of the day
section 14: two thousand places by the polyphonic spree
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHySBlLBn7E
my roommate and i were discussing how awesome this band is the other day. it is also applicable to life right now feel like i have to be 2000 places at once but this song suggests to me that everything will work out in time and it is important to figure out who you are in order to be successful.

i remember when our voices used to sound the same

2010-03-30T23:09:00.000-05:00

song of the day
breakneck speed by tokyo police club
http://stereogum.com/315651/tokyo-police-club-breakneck-speed-stereogum-premiere/mp3s/
i love this band havent heard from them in a few years but i discovered this song today and a new album coming soon. it feels good to be back. it feels good to be back. it feels good to be bad?

so i came to the conclusion that if i survive law school then i might never die cause this is the hardest thing i have ever done and i have a feeling surviving it will make me invincible or something like that. makes sense right?.... these are the things i think about

i have a friend named ashlee carroll she is a super talented photographer i wish i was artistic and talented like her i see artistic people and want that to be more me. i know not many people read this but you should check out her site http://www.ashleebrookephotography.com this is one of her pictures that i think is just sweet.

chi town

2010-03-27T15:18:00.000-05:00

song of the day
airplanes by local natives
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EonnZ-8GdiY
a friend turned me on to this band a few weeks ago been listening to the cd a lot good stuff check it out

so i am going to chicago with a friend and a professor this summer for a white sox game i am pretty pumped never been to chi town and i love baseball pretty much more than anything. i bought this trip at a charity auction so im trying to be like yeah i donate to charity but the trip will be sweet and is probably something i would do regardless of charity so i am trying not to be selfish but it is tough.

our life is not a movie

2010-03-24T22:18:00.001-05:00

song of the day
our life is not a movie or maybe by okkervil river
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROlCPlnCIfo

this song is grapes

matt pond pa

2010-03-23T23:22:00.000-05:00

song of the day

halloween by matt pond pa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdjaMCH56yM

kind of forgot about this band but was trying to find something different for a friend i forgot how much i liked these guys when i was thinking about what she would like

im thankful for good friends

easy tiger

2010-03-22T20:37:00.000-05:00

song of the day
everybody knows by ryan adams
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFTOkj2rKhw

i freaking love this song probably my favorite of all time. i remember buying this album (easy tiger) in the summer of 2007 crazy it was that long ago, but this album has had a huge impact on my life since then. start to finish this album is gold. this song stood out to me and has been my favorite ever since. i saw ryan adams that summer as well best show i have ever been to wish he was still touring.

ryan adams day what else is new

2010-03-21T22:04:00.000-05:00

song of the day
la cienega just smiled by ryan adams
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ImXTJe8MxQI&feature=related

ryan adams reading one of his poems
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CUrGY399VEo&feature=related

the song on the new norah jones cd that ryan adams wrote: light as a feather
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2IrWoKOLjQI

how the hell did i get here

2010-03-20T23:48:00.000-05:00

song of the day
what were the chances? by damien jurado
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1NtXebU4DY

I was in the desert waving planes and burning phonebooks
To a tune that was famous the year I was born
Do not leave me dancing alone

NIT

2010-03-19T19:28:00.000-05:00

song of the day
monster hospital by metric
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlW-r5BF-Oo
i love metric this song is about going crazy and i kind of feel like that sometimes but whatever

all this hype about the ncaa tournament has got me thinking about the nit. i think it shows a lot about a teams character how they perform in the nit. i mean yeah we werent one of the best 65 teams in the country but we were close so what do we do pack it up and try next year or do we go leave it all out there and try to get to new york and win the nit? i think it would be incredibly hard to give it your all in a tournament like that.
life lesson from this story i think: even though you might not get what you want or were trying for it shows a lot about the kind of person you are if you give it your all in whatever you end up with? so stop being a whinny bitch steven and suck it up

hi

2010-03-18T17:01:00.000-05:00

song of the day
hi by now it's overhead
http://www.lala.com/#song/360569458060739794

hi nice to meet you

volume 2

2010-03-16T14:51:00.000-05:00

album of the day
volume 2 by she & him
stream the album here http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=124615798&ft=1&f=1039
this doesnt come out till the end of the month but its streaming at npr zooey and m ward are amazing check it out. so far i think it is pretty amazing. some people as in nikki saenz say zooey seems like she is stuck in the 60s i disagree and think its awesome.

so i love spring break i need to study but i keep finding things to distract me such as: soccer music basketball the gym and even filling out taxes and financial aid. i might clean in a second to avoid outlining
day light savings kind of messed me up never thought losing an hour would screw with me for 2 days shouldnt of stayed up till 4 on saturday good thinking steven.

my dad went to pick up my brother from his mission today kind of weird he has been gone 2 years

my heart is not black, just dirty from all the floors

2010-03-15T17:47:00.000-05:00

song of the day
oh my god, whatever, etc. by ryan adams
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3HLTbVlPdU
this song sums my mood up today and here is a few other videos of music that i think is great

new she & him video
http://stereogum.com/293221/she-him-in-the-sun-video/news/
broken bells ghost inside on fallon
http://stereogum.com/298051/broken-bells-bring-out-the-ghost-inside-for-fallon/news/

great idea

2010-03-13T14:56:00.002-06:00

song of the day
apartment story by the national
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RUU2YiNIdlc
my favorite song from one of my favorite bands

the national with new stuff on falon the other night cant wait for the new cd
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-GdlsaQH6ao

this was a good idea:

santigold

2010-03-12T15:38:00.000-06:00

song of the day

l.e.s artistes and im a lady by santigold

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ho8uHDb7hVI&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCeZzW54a2o&feature=related

kind of forgot about this cd but there was a point a few years ago where i listened to it non stop for a month straight glad i found it again today

What am I here for
I left my home to disappear is all
I'm here for myself
Not to know you
I don't need no one else
Fit in so good the hope is that you cannot see me later
You don't know me
I am an introvert an excavator
I'm duckin' out for now
a face in dodgy elevators
Creep up and suddenly
I found myself
an innovator

bells are still broken

2010-03-11T16:59:00.000-06:00

song of the day

the ghost inside by broken bells

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EPARk9_7WwM

this is a live version a little toned down but still amazing the whole album is unbelievable better than any shins album.

interview with mercer and danger mouse

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjDSidaq1KI&feature=related

the high road live on letterman

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGqKFxMqI_E

some kind of nature

2010-03-10T14:39:00.000-06:00

song of the day

some kind of nature by gorillaz featuring lou reed

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=461DTk1C5_Y

got the new gorillaz album was pretty excited about it but kind of let down but this is my favorite song on it

oral arguments are done which means legal research and writing is done for the year crazy never worked that hard for what will probably be a crappy grade but what can you do

my mind is on spring break but i still have 2 days and then i actually need to study over spring break as finals are in a month and i am terrified

broken bells

2010-03-08T22:47:00.000-06:00

song of the day

high road by broken bells

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mkr19RSG6k

just bought this cd today so far amazing!

not the best day today but once oral arguments are over things will be a little better

I’d fix it if I could
And I’d always win
I’d always win
And you’d always lose

dear chicago

2010-03-07T23:52:00.001-06:00

song of the day

dear chicago by ryan adams

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YSUpUcRsEls

people f*cking suck

when hip hop was real

2010-03-06T18:39:00.000-06:00

song of the day

glaciers of ice by raekwon

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=go-vqx8R2hY

glaciers of ice interesting title what else would glaciers be made of? that is besides the point raekwon and ghostface killah two of my favorite wu tang members and this song takes me back

passion pit and dan clark

2010-03-05T23:43:00.000-06:00

song of the day

little secrets by passion pit

http://vodpod.com/watch/3134797-passion-pit-little-secrets

this cd is awesome this is probably my favorite from it. can make a good mood even better. they are playing in salt lake in april so if you live there you should go cause they are awesome meanwhile i will be stuck in nebraska living in a law school dream world or something like that

so round one of oral arguments went tonight think i did well got lots of compliments but i still hate public speaking the whole time i would have rather been unsticking my tongue from a frozen poll or something painful. who likes public speaking i mean yeah people can do it and get through it but i know very few people who are like "hey public speaking awesome let me do it twice". however dan clark makes his living off public speaking http://www.danclarkspeak.com/ i have had a lot of interaction with dan clark he is a great guy and nicest guy youll meet but his website and some of his things crack me up but this guy is always speaking and to tons of people in tons of places i respect that cause i do not think that could ever be me. so what am i going to do instead oh be a lawyer and potentially be arguing in court consistently. good thinking steven. so i guess i better get over this fear of speaking in public took a large step tonight and did well so hopefully i can keep the momentum rolling.

come pick me up

2010-03-05T00:05:00.000-06:00

song of the day

come pick me up by ryan adams

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z59M71KVoY4&feature=fvw

this song pretty much rips my heart out in a therapeutic way sometimes when you are down listening to depressing music helps not sure what it is maybe the fact that others are down and have expressed their pain and emotions through music

oral arguments tomorrow f*ck me but whatever

we were promised jetpacks

2010-03-03T23:20:00.000-06:00

song of the day

quiet little voices by we were promised jetpacks

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5ZhBAylbN4

a friend at school turned me on to this new scottish band. i like what i hear so far. and we were promised jetpacks might be the best band name ever!

im really tired today and not much to say

"Most of the time I got nothing to say
When I do it's nothing and nobody's there to listen anyway
I know I'm probably better off this way
I just listen to the voices on the TV 'til I'm tired
My eyes grow heavy and I fade away"

i woke up

2010-03-02T21:54:00.000-06:00

song of the day

i woke up with this song in my head this morning by bright eyes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4y7flF-w5k

wish this was true

"I woke up and put your record on this morning.
With no singing. With no swinging too.
There is no dancing. There is no missing you."

sleeping lessons

2010-03-01T21:58:00.000-06:00

song of the day

sleeping lessons by the shins

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UoNtIkRm1HE&feature=related

this is one of my favorite shins songs and love the music video. this band is one of my favorites but havent done anything since 2007 i know they have been having issues and lead singer james mercer has a new band called broken bells with a cd due next week hopefully it is good cause the shins blow my mind.

turned in my brief today pretty good feeling. i mean who knows what my grade is but i feel like i accomplished something it was a pretty big project.

my little brother joe won the hockey state championship tonight pretty excited for him he had 37 saves. im sad i couldnt make it but nebraska is cool i guess? not really

"And I keep looking for that blindfold faith
Lighting candles to a cynical saint
Who wants the last laugh at the fly trapped in the windowsill tape
You can go right out of your mind trying to escape
From the panicked paradox of day to day"